Lately I've been so absent from blogging. Sometimes I even forget that I have this blog anymore. That's so crazy? I'm not sure if that's good or bad. It is what it is though. Life is keeping me busy and I haven't felt like writing much these days.
Well, actually, I do still write. Lately it just comes in the form of lists, random quotes, song lyrics or something funny my daughter said to me during the day. I had an idea for a play to write. Then I changed my mind about that and scratched the idea. I have an idea to write a few short stories but I haven't started those yet. I may or may not write a sequel cookbook. I don't know. I can't make up my mind yet. And for the first time in a long time, that doesn't bother me one bit.
Looking back at my blog two years ago, I was writing nearly every day. I put pressure on myself to keep doing it. Some posts were hilarious and witty. Some were just plain crap. I feel like several of my recent (but scarce) posts have been crap too. But that's okay. I liked the first Twilight book but can NOT, I mean I can NOT get through the second book New Moon. Maybe we're only good with the original version and a 2.0 or a sequel of myself just cannot be written. After two years, I am just not that interesting anymore, LOL!
Seriously though, I just seem to be focused on other things. In fact I wonder ifblogging is losing its luster for me. I hardly keep up with my blogging friends anymore either (you!). I feel bad about that. I do care about them (about you) and I do find their stories (your stories) so interesting but again.... things change. I am changing.
I'll always be glad I started this blog. My friend Jen told me recently I should defnitely NOT delete it or get rid of it completely. And I won't. But for now I view it as a long-distance friend....one that I will call upon (write on) every so often when I want to hear its voice (share my voice). I can't get motivated beyond that at the present time.
The reason that blogging is becoming uninteresting to me is because I'm a binge person. There, I said it. The first step is admitting you have a problem, right? I can be a binger.
Let me clarify. I don't binge eat (except the occasional chocolate festival during menstrual cycles or tough times). I don't binge drink (except for rare weddings, family gatherings or Mardi Gras parades). But I binge in other ways.
I binge in my activities and life routines. I get really into a project, goal, music, book, or whatever the case may be and then I get bored. My husband points this out to me all the time. In fact he marvels at the fact that I'm happily married and committed to him and our relationship when I so often move from one thing to another in every other aspect of my life. Strangely enough, my relationships with people never get old to me. Not those that I love and care about! The rest though comes and goes....
For example, I've been having the same John Mayer music CD in my car since the holidays. It's all I want to listen to lately, his Continuum album. I spent most of last year running and doing the 30-day shred. Now I am bored with those workouts and want to take up yoga. I've been volunteering a lot with a mom's group but I'm looking forward to relinquishing those duties soon. I go through periods of not doing anything to deepen and enhance my spirituality. Then I get pulled deep into it and can think of hardly anything else. I will let my house become filthy and then try to clean it all up in one day and obsess over the sudden thought of clean toilets and spotless floors.
Binge. Binge. Binge. Why am I like this?
My newest binge or obsession this week is Books, but in paticular a book site called "Good Reads." A friend told me about it months ago and has been suggesting I try it. Finally I did after I read a memoir that I really enjoyed this week.
I maneuvered my way around this "Good Reads" site and somehow managed to upload 20 books I've read or want to read, complete with reviews in less than two hours. I even thought back to a few stories that I read over 5 years ago but still remembered vividly. Then suddenly the site was linking me with other people I know or sort of know. Interesting and thrilling.
Maybe this is the new "blog" for me - just checking out what others are reading and their reviews and ratings of books?? Who knows!?
But that's what is happening with me as of lately. I'm around and doing well. I'm reading more, writing less but enjoying life when I can. If something exciting and worth sharing comes up, I'll be sure and post it here.
Until then, I hope you're doing well. I'll close with a few great quotes I wrote down from that recent book I've read, Devotion by Dani Shapiro.
--"I'm cultivating myself, fostering personal growth."
--"Those who seek the purest spiritual knowledge do so alone."
--"The whole world is a lesson and the lesson keeps changing."
--"Please allow my heart to be open to all that is."
--"May I be safe, May I be happy, May I be strong, May I live with ease."
To you - my friends and few readers - if you see this post, please know that I wish you the same. I wish that you be safe, be happy, be strong and live with ease! Lots of love to you!